Sunday, April 27, 2014

It is with a heavy heart... a goodbye - 04.28.2014

{image by Mina Brinkey}

I always knew this day would eventually come.  I've always been a realist and have always understood that all things must, inevitably, end at some point.   I started this blog on Christmas day of 2007.  I was 28 years old. I had been recently dumped by a boyfriend I thought was genuine.  I'd been so heartbroken that I slept on my couch for a year and refused to sleep in my bed.  I went into a pretty deep sadness.  Not depression.  But, definitely sadness.  A disappointment like no other.  2007 was also the year I realized I had absolutely, without a doubt, chosen the wrong profession.  I resented the legal field.  I regretted spending so much of my time (and money) on law school and wanted nothing more than to get back into a classroom where my passion for teaching has always stood still.  But, teaching jobs were nowhere to be found at that time.  It was a tough time in my life... to say the very, very least.  I was single.  I was unemployed.  I was sad.  Pretttttty pathetic if you ask me.  

Then... Christmas day. 2007.  My parents decided to leave for the holidays.  So. Where was I? Home. Alone. With my dogs and cat.  I browsed the Internet because I didn't have any cable.  I found a blog called Decor 8 by Holly Becker.  I read and was instantly intrigued.  Inspired.  I looked up other blogs like it and stumbled upon Grace Bonney's Design Sponge. Again, inspired.  So inspired, in fact, that I took the plunge and thought... "Why don't I do this??"  I googled "blog template" and came across  I opened an account and named it "Mina's Decor and Fashion".  My first post? "Let's Talk Vintage," went live at 11:27 pm that very Christmas night.  And so my journey to becoming a blogger began.

I remember thinking "I hope this succeeds.  I hope people find me! I hope I can inspire people!"  But, more than that, this blog gave me hope for a better future.  Hope that I was worthy.  That I had something to bring to the table.  Hope... that I could get over a failed relationship and career because now I had something new to occupy my mind and eventually my very soul.  Within a couple of months I had re-named the blog "Bohemian Vintage" and was telling everyone who'd listen about it.  I believed in this little blog.  Every time I saw how many people had read it by day's end I'd get soooooo excited! It became my little baby.  

Suddenly... I felt happy. Fulfilled even.  I'd barely think about the jerk who dumped me for being "too nice" (I'm still baffled by that excuse)... and I delved into the world of home design head first! I devoured all there was to know about it. I read every blog and pored over every book I could get my hands on.  On Sundays I worked at a local vintage boutique and honed my skills there.  I suddenly LOVED my life.  Seriously l.o.v.e.d it! I didn't want a man. I didn't need a man. I was happy as can be with my two dogs and my cat and my blog!

But, you know what they say... "when you're not looking, that's when..." my husband walked through the doors of the vintage shop I was working in.  Well... I stand corrected.  He took cover under the outside awning.  It began pouring rain (without warning, as it sometimes happens here in Florida!) and he was out with his dog.  He stood under the shop's awning and I noticed he had a dog.  My dog (now my Mom's dog), Cooper was with me.  So, I walked out there to see if his dog wanted to play with my dog.  Why I thought that was a good idea? Who knows? But, the rest is history.  He came back a week later, asked me to lunch and my life changed! But, my little blog stood still.  I kept it up.  I worked on it.  I tried to improve it.  I was proud of it.

A year later, I married my prince! A year after that? Bohemian Vintage became an actual store front!  In 2010, we closed the shop. That was bittersweet.  But, a relief at the same time.  It's true what they say... sometimes God takes some things away to make room for something better.  That proved to be absolutely true in our case.  In 2010 I finally found my way back into the classroom and that very same year I found out we were pregnant and  we had our baby girl soon thereafter! This little blog? Kept on going!

I always believed that the blog had a purpose.  That it would someday lead to something.  I just never knew what that something was.  But, I felt strongly about keeping it going until that something showed up.  

In 2013... that something came and it has completely changed my life.  Houzz knocked on my e-mail door.  "We want to contract you. Work for us. Do house tours."  Who? Meeeeee???? Whhhyyyyy????
And here I am.  A photography business and an absolute love for interiors photography has completely turned my life upside down.  How did they find me? "I read your blog." Wow.  Here it is! It's the something I'd been waiting on all these years!

So. Why didn't I close the blog right then and there? As with all long relationships, it takes time to come to terms with the idea that the end is here.  I wasn't ready to part with the blog.  With you guys.  

But, suddenly, I am overwhelmed with this feeling that I must.  I've grown up with this blog.  I started it as a single, 20 something straight out of law school who was scared shitless. Let's face it. It's true.  Now, 7 years later... I'm married lady sadie with a toddler on my hands, a full time teaching career, a photography business and a whole lotta stuff on my little tiny saucer plate.  Life is full.  In so many great ways!!  Unfortunately, I have come to the hard realization that I can't do it all. As much as I like to believe that I can.  I simply cannot.  Something's gotta give.  : (

It is with a full and heavy heart that I must say good bye to my little home on the web.  To you.  Especially those of you who've followed me from day one.  Who've made comments.  Whom I met when working at the shop.  Who I met in Utah on conferences.  That's the hardest part of this decision. But to you... the ones who've returned to read a second, third, fourth post... I want to say from the very bottom of my heart... thank you. You've made my life full.  You gave me hope when I thought it was all lost.  This blog brought me back to life.  Literally.  It brought me happiness and with that feeling God brought my husband into my life and then my teaching career and then our beautiful, sweet, lil' S.  The best part? I've gotten to share it with all of you over the course of 6 1/2 years.  Thank you. Thank you.

Although I won't continue to write on here any more, I won't shut it down.  You are more than welcome to read through the archives to find inspiration.  I think over 6 1/2 years, I've written about nearly everything in home decor! So, you're bound to find what you're looking for.  You can also still follow along on Facebook, where I will continue to post pictures and things that will inspire you (hopefully!)  You can follow along on Pinterest as I pin to my little heart's content! Or, you can read my articles and see the photos that I shoot for Houzz, by following along here. I hope you stay in touch.  Twitter is always a quick and easy way! Or check into the website periodically to see any new projects I may be working on. : )

Love you guys. Thank you again.  Don't be strangers.


P.S.  I'm sure I won't be able to stay away from blogging for long.  But, if and when I do it again, I want it to reflect who I am now... at this point in my journey.  Stay tuned... (check Facebook/Twitter periodically for any updates!)


Wig Em said...

I admit to shedding some tears as I read your last entry. You definitely have a lot of great things happening in your life and I'm so proud of you! Love you sissy face!

Mina said...

I cried too Mu. : ( You've been part of this journey since day one. Love you sis. Thank you for always believing in me.

Anonymous said...

Hello Mina,

I am happy to hear that all is so very well with you, that your life is fulfilling. Readers like me appreciate all that you have shared in your blog and thank you for being part of our lives over the years. Best wishes to you always, Ardith

Mina said...

Thank you for reading Ardith. It means the world to me. More than you'll ever know. :-) Thanks again!

valerie said...

Hi Mina,
I'm so glad I got to know you a bit through Justina's styling course. Your house is beyond inspiring! And I find myself often looking through your archives for beautiful interior eye candy. I've been following your blog for a year now and I will miss seeing it updated! However, I know I'll be back to find more inspiration through your archives. I wish you the best on your current & new ventures! I will continue to follow you on Pinterest and Instagram! ~Valerie

Mina said...

Thank you Valerie! It was SO awesome to "meet" you too! You have awesome style and I am so grateful you let me feature your home on here. It was definitely an all time favorite post. So thank you!!

Linda said...

I think its is wonderful...your growing & moving forward in life...Many blessings & wonderful times in your new journey..

Linda :D

Mina said...

Thank you Linda!